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Friday, December 29, 2006
Just want to greet you all a late MERRY CHRISTMAS! :P Hehe! I'm just up to dance practices lately. We're having this competition next month and sinali lang ako nila ate Kaye. I'm really nervous, it's my first time to join a national competition. Woah! So yup, dance practice every Tuesday-Friday, 2-7pm, you have to know the dance, the timing, the beat of each song, do it hardout with facials. The next day?? My body hurts. Haha! Yup, but that's dancing, dun ako happy :D Haha! I can say (not to brag or anything) na mas maayos yung dance ko ngayon. OHH and I can also say that I know how to POP na!!! WOOYEH! Haha! POP and krump!! YAYAH! Haha! Well, I can't actually krump do it without jumping. Hehe! :P I'm not bragging or nething, I'm just happy and wanna share my happiness to everyone. XD
So yup, that's all my update for now. I'm really laaaazzy. :P
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Sunday, December 10, 2006
Hey there.. :D Just finished watching "Abt Ur Luv".. Kiligs! Haha! Okay neway, I really wanna open up my feelings here in my "online journal". Hehe.
Okay, so here... There's this guy I like.. He likes somebody, Ohh oops, I mean LOVE. And I dunno he's always in my mind day and night. I dunno why. :'( It's so confusin. This actually happened before. Well always pag may crush ako. But this one...He loves somebody. Hypothetically thinking, I might be infatuated or in love with him. BUT can you love somebody who doesn't even love or like you back? It's just so stupid. And I'm lost. I even cried last night just because of this. Hahaha! I know I'm such a cry baby but I can't help it and I can't even tell my close friends about it. Why? 'Cause they know it's not right. They will just tell me it would be better to stop liking him. I know that, I really do but I can't just forget about him.
I'm really confuzzled. I need someone to talk to. :(
Oh my dear best friends, where are you when I need you?
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Friday, December 08, 2006
Hey hey! Oo0h wow, I posted again. Haha! So yup.. I'm just sitting in our living room, laptop on my legs, watching Disney Channel, AJ tryna annoy me, asking me to smell her stinky feet. :D
Soooo uhh.. I've got nothing good to write. My life is boring. :( It really is. :( Okay, enuff dramaqueen. Uhm.. It's our last week next week then it's our summer vacation na! Yayah! Oh and I had this whole week off! Haha lucky me. Well, I hope I really am. Haha. Uhm. Okayy I really don't know what to write. I'll just be back later. Bye for now.
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I'm finally back. Haha! Yep, then tomorrow I won't be posting again. Tsk! I don't know, laziness just attacks me. That's also the reason why I haven't posted some pictures in multiply. It's nearly our vacation naman na so I have time to fix my stuff.
As you can see, I've got a new skin! ..Which I got from blogskins again. I'm really lazy to work on my own skin so yea... I haven't actually finished it I still have to edit some parts.
Ok anyway, I've been sad lately. Actually I am sad everyday but now I have a new reason to be sad and that is... I miss having a lovelife. Haha! Honestly.. Grr. Some people know that I've had a lovelife when I got here. Well yup I did. So I liked him, he liked me. We were romantically happy until my feelings for him faded. Haha! Ang killer ko. Oh well. It wasn't my fault, it was my feelings. Haha! OKAAY. Focus. I don't know how or what happened but one night, he acted kinda weird, like cold. Then one of our friends posted a message on my bebo (like friendster) saying "ok ka lang ba sis?" after reading that somebody IM'ed me saying "bakit mo siya ginanon? kawawa naman sya" then he went offline. Then I asked one of my friends if she knew something about it then she told me that there was a rumour that I don't love him anymore and that I'm in love with someone else (sounds dramatic). And yeh, I was crying 'cause I was really confused, I didn't know what was happening.
Then the next day he texted me, he said something like "bakit di mo sinsabi may iba ka ng mahal? pinaasa mo lang ako sa wala." I replied "hindi ko sinabi kasi wala naman dapat sabihin" and we were telling each other stuff then his last message to me was "mahal mo pa ba ko?" then I answered "dunno pero yoko na." and yup that was it.
The reason why I said "ayoko na" is because I want to be lovelife-free again. And now I'm missing having one. (don't get me wrong, I miss having a lovelife, not the guy, I've moved on, we're friends. :D) Well my heart is longing for it, my mind doesn't.
I miss those fireworks kind of feeling inside when a guy says "iloveYOU" and when he hugs you and it makes you feel like there are no other things to worry about, like everything disappears and its just you and him and the kisses oh dang! they're fergalicious delicious!! HAHA EEWW JOKE LANG! :P
I have a crush naman ngayon BUT may mahal siya and I mean MAHAL. Like MAHAL na MAHAL. :'( Ouchh! Haha nah, all good. Who's fault is it to like him naman diba?
So yup. I know I'll be posting tomorrow. So have to go now! It's 1:27am na. And may school pa tomorrow but magaabsent ako. Yipeee! Haha! :P Ok, bye now. :D
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Saturday, October 21, 2006
Homesick. Melancholy. Sad. Lonesome. Lonely. Whatever you call it, that's exactly how I'm feeling at the moment. I never thought that it will take months to move on. I've been here for 4 months and I've only moved on for like 3%. I thought as soon as I get here and start studying and meet new people, I will be preoccupied and be contented. But no, it was a mistake. Just hearing the voice of my relatives from the phone and reading those "Happy Birthday" messages always leaves a tear from my eyes. That's how strong it affects me.
I don't like it here. It has nothing to do with the country or with the people here. It's just me, I don't belong here. I miss the after school days when as soon as I reach home, I just jump in my bed and think of how exhausting my day was and it makes me feel relieved cause I've got the ambiance of home and anytime you can think of a person, you will just feel fine 'cause you know that you can be with that person anytime. Here, it has always been tiring every single minute just thinking of how upseting it is to be in a place where you don't want to be.
It's tiring to feel that no matter how I can laugh and smile, there's still this nuisance that I can't remove out of me. I envy some of my friends who moved here when they were still 2 or 4. They didn't know what was happening until they grew up and found out they were originally from Philippines. It was nothing to them, they didn't have to move on. I have to. It was big for me. It affected me. It frightens me that I might have to move on again in the future.
Yesterday, my friends and I were talking about what might happen in the future. I was having a conversation with one of them then when I turned to my other friend, I heard her say "I want to see my friends grow up, not leave!" It was catchy. It was obvious that she's scared and that she knows what might happen in the future, just like me. I can see myself moving from different countries, trying what it would be like to live there but in my imagination, I always end up in Philippines. When people ask me what I want to be when I grow up, I can imagine myself studying in another country but still, I always end up succeeding in Philippines. It's quite weird though 'cause I'm here and I should be picturing my future here.
I want to go home. :'(
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Wednesday, October 11, 2006
I'm so tired from school. =( Anyway, I can't get over my 13th year. Since yesterday, memories of my 13th just came back to my head. It's sad though cause it just makes me miss Philly even more. =( The other night, I was praying to God before I slept, while I was praying and thanking God for my 13th, tears suddenly came out from my eyes. I'm not exaggerating, I'm just being honest. Pictures of memories came flashing in my head. Grad, batch outing, legacy, first ever misunderstanding namin ni Mai nung school fair, intrams (my first time to join a sport for intrams), 3 months without my mom, confirmation, migrating, etc... BIG AND MEMORABLE things happened in my life when I was 13. It wasn't all fun cause God really gave me so much challenges in that year. It was good though cause it made me more tough and strong.
Today, I'm not really feeling that good. I always feel like there's a *sigh* coming out of me once in a while. I know I'm not just pressured because of school, it's more about what I'm feeling at the moment. It's my first ever birthday that I didn't celebrate in Philly. It makes a HUGE difference. I don't mean the number of people who give me presents and how good the gifts I receive there. It's about I want to celebrate this day with people I love. I just want at least see those people personally. I feel so down right now knowing that I don't have the chance to be with them. ='(
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Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Happy Birthday to me! Haha! I'm 14. Woah! I'm old mann. :( Neh, not that bad. Uhm.. Soo I'll just talk about my birthday...
Mom woke me up for school. She was the first person to greet me. Then it was AJ and Jas, John, Tito, Karizza, Kitchie, Mao, Denice, Manju, Ina, and some other friends, 9EN, Ms. Mckeown, ate Mariel, Princess, etc... Hahaha! There was this girl during lunch, I don't know her. She just said "Happy Birthday" out loud then when I looked at her, she was looking at me and she said it again. I was like, "Thanks" Hahaha! I wasn't sure how she knew it was my birthday. She was friendly though. Haha! Then during departure, Kara, Hannah, Kim, April greeted me. Then I walked home with Ken, Kitchie and John. Then it suddenly rained HARDOUT. Like signal no.1. Haha! I was soooo happy about it though it was so dang cold and I was blown over by the wind. I was happy because I know that its God's blessing to me. The raining was only like about 10 mins. then it stopped then it got hot. Haha! God just wanted to show some lurve. ;)
While I was walking home, there was this guy inside a familiar car. When I looked down to see the plate no., I noticed it was my dad. Haha! He's picking me up 'cause he got worried about me getting wet. Oh well, too late.
When I got home, mom was cooking and she told me that she'll invite the Gondas over (ate Kaye, Ken, Princess, etc...) It was my first night to drink Vodka. Haha! It tasted like juice and it was only 5% alcohol and it was fine. But after drinking, we were all red. Haha! The alcohol effect was funny thought we didn't feel anything.
Gifts:
*painting and letter from ate Kaye (its really good)
*box of letters and a small teddy from Hannah, Kim, Kara and April
*stuff toy and letter from Ken
*Small lamp thing from Princess
*Lipgloss and bracelet from Rochelle
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Sunday, October 01, 2006
It was ate Tid's Sweet 16th yesterday. I went to Westfield to buy a top, earrings and gift. Then when we got home I ate and got dressed then went to Kitchie's house to catch a ride with her. So we left their house and went to Glen Eden. When we got there, there were a bunch of year 9 boys hanging outside. It was a bit awkward. Haha. So we got in and went to where our other friends were sitted. Then ate Tid asked us to help serve the foods and the utensils, so we did. Twas a bit fun. Haha. And then it was time to get food. When we sat on our table, we suddenly noticed that everyone has utensils except us. HAHA. So we served utensils but forgot about ourselves. Haha. Then we lined up but when we got there, we decided just to eat pasta so we went back because that pasta is already in our table. So we ate...
Time na for the 16 wishes. DAAAANG! Gosh, all of us got nervous 'cause we have to say our wishes for ate Tid infront of everyone. Then after an hour of 16 wishes, it was time to sing happy birthday for ate Tid.
After that, biglang nag lights out then louder music. WOOT! Time to daaaance. Yea. I got sooo high. Haha! But I didn't dance that much but we really want to but it would be embarrassing. Yea... It wasn't that long though, nag-end din agad. Daym! Haha!
Then Kitchie and I went home na. Kitchie dropped me off. Baiiit. :D Haha!
I got home at 12 somethin. Yea. :D
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